Gwen Stefani’s divorce from Gavin Rossdale was already tough enough to deal with. But what made it harder was that their break-up took away a dream that Stefani spent her whole life fantasizing about.

Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rossdale divorced eight years ago, but the 55-year-old singer isn’t done talking about her 59-year-old ex. She’s now happily married to country superstar Blake Shelton and can’t stop gushing about how different their love is compared to the first time around with Rossdale.

Gwen Stefani sings of heartbreak — and falling for husband Blake Shelton — on her new album 'Bouquet,' out Friday, Nov. 15